Book Review:

We Were Liars - E. Lockhart

2/5: After finishing the book, as usual I gave some time to recollect everything and put it in words. The writing style is unfortunately not to my liking. Writing in such confusing manner which often brought me into questioning what is going on. It could be what the author wants - for us to keep questioning. But I realized the book is just like that. It just ended simply like this, like O-K-A-Y.

If I start on this book, I'll have just jumped to the end, on the truth. Because the start and the middle is just a little here and there, even though they do add up a bit to the reasons in which why the tragedy happened. Also, the book addresses social issues - the rich and poor a little but it was put it out a little shallowly and in the kind which is just cliche.

As its been said, it is a tragedy book (We Were Tragedy) and its accidents are not really that easy to stomach.

Sorry to say, the cause of (spoiler: deaths) is pretty stupid. I mean its allllllll pretty stupid.. entirely.. this book.

Dark Places - Gillian Flynn

5/5: OOOOOO I REALLY LOVE THIS. The thriller is really done well. The plot builds up appropriately and was in a good pace. I also like how the author describes the MC at the start to be a really disoriented, screwed up, unlovable kind of fella. And slowly as I read on, even though the author don't put it straight forth, she gave slight hints on character development. I love how the MC decided to find out more about the murders, starting it was about money, but then slowly it wasn't about $$$. Its more on not running away anymore, not living in denial, the guilt, the shame. It was terrific. I pity her mother, the struggles and pain. The murders were really quite sad and unexpected (but I did suspect about it before the truth unraveled). 

Besides that, the chapters were put in different perspectives and timeline perfectly which do not confuse the reader, but helps in the build up of the story climax.

I truly truly enjoy this book.

So how was my holidays.


BORING.

I struggled 3-4 jobs. I was in a really bad job and was furious about working with such people.
But yeah, no shit given to them because I don't even see it as anything important for my future.
Why work for such a lousy company I can't even.
Shall not bring in what company it is but I'm really happy I left the part time job.

I also did have various jobs, one being in a cleaning company which pays well and I did learned how to be better in cleaning.
Whether how people see it as shameful or not. - I don't.
I don't feel shameful, I see it as a challenge, to push myself out from something I couldn't do to something I can right now.
I feel it is a privilege even to be given a chance to be paid so much and clean their homes.
When they are happy with my cleaning and praised me for being such a hardworking young girl (LOL), I'm reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy happy.
It kind of made me feel I've done something out of my comfort zone- no admin jobs, no waitress, no no no.

Putting all that aside, I've earned quite a bit for my planned exchange trip next year.
I wanna go to Japan. I really do.
To see the place where I love when I was a little girl.
Tamagotchi, wait for me T_T.
Chio bu(s), wait for me T_T.
I'll be super nervous when I reached there I'm sure. hahahahah.
But I pray it will all turn out well for everyone.

Anyway, I got my timetable for my coming year 3 sem 1.
Crap. I couldn't get into business finance!
I really wanna clear my business mod ASAP omg let me have my way for once can????
Why must the admin break my happiness chain wtf.
I already got quite a number of stuff to worry about and the admin must be like hahahahaah lai give you another.
I got slap in the face man.
PLZZZZZZZZZZZ
Gonna pray so hard so I could get in to the business mod of my choice and plzzzzz let things be good :'(

2 Book Reviews

Holla I'm back again.
My summer holidays are coming to an end - sadly; because I didn't have much time to read a lot of books I wanted to immerse on.
I'm done with "Under The Dome" by Stephen King and "Never Let Me Go" by Kazuo Ishiguro.
I rated 2 stars for the former and 5 stars for the latter.
Let me explain why. (Spoilers ahead. I already put a disclaimer, if anyone did ever read my pathetic blog.)

1) Under The Dome

This book is definitely a really heavy one I would say.
Comprises of around 800+ close to 900 pages.
The author starts off pretty well, or rather.. it got me going.
I enjoyed the start as he slowly brought in the tragedies when the dome struck down and introduces the characters.
The way Stephen King wrote about the characters definitely is fantastic, because along the way he definitely got me really annoyed and fed up with some characters. He "crafted" and fitted the characters' personalities well into the story.
However, halfway through the book I got really bored.
He whines away about many things and really kind of makes me feel no one is driving the bus anymore.
No direction halfway through, would it be because of the preparation of a deep plot?
That's what I thought but nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~
The reason of how the dome struck down is quite stupid in my opinion.
The reason on WHO is behind it is also quite hard to swallow and this was generally pointed out in other reviews by others as well.
Still, I like how he put his "moral of the story" point - about how human life can be actually so small when we humans always do think of ourselves as the central importance among all other lifeforms.
But - even when I do like that part, I still think THAT PART wasn't brought in nicely and wrap up in a good closure.
The ending was horrible for me, it left me thinking - what. is. this. shit.
Well yeah and there's the part where he put some scriptures in and deliberately made the characters misinterpret the context of it. - I kind of like how he made me feel how people could ever been so wrong about religion. (I won't discuss further about this)
All in all, I wasted my time reading this.
There are certainly some good in this book, it was O-K-A-Y but it could've been better.
I wanted to give 3 stars but nah, 2 instead.


2) Never Let Me Go

I never thought this book was a Dystopian Sci-fi genre. Really guys.
And I never would have thought this book had actually turned into a movie... way back in year 2010.
I only found out after I brought this book to my job assignment and my colleague was like "OMG I watched the movie!"
I'm so #@$%& slow.
Anyway, when I started reading it, I had lots of question marks.
Like what donations? Don't they have parents? Why do they have to be creative?
Ah, then halfway down the book the author gave the greatest hint of all - Human clones.
Now the talk about human cloning. Whenever the subject of cloning is brought up, I only have "Dolly the Sheep" in my mind. LOL.
I had ever been in a big discussion in my class during my Junior College days - about where should the line be drawn between scientific research and "playing God".
Talks about cloning didn't felt real to me much until this book.
So when I read this book and found out that this author had written about cloning, I'm intrigued.
I love reading or listening in about bio-ethical issues or even some hint of it.
Maybe I am slow to not be introduced to more better books than this or so.
But I certainly am loving this book.
The author wrote this book totally in Kathy.H's perspective or the clone's view if I have to say.
It definitely did stirred empathy and pity in me.
The idea of how short human life can be and how important is it to do what we all for once, love to do.
How precious simple memories to our point of view may be nothing to us but actually be so great and precious to them because of their impending death.
The author ended the story well. The book is easy to read as it contains simple words.
I reckon that my favorites in this book would be the conversation between Miss Emily, Madame, Tommy and Kathy, and also... the ending.
The informal way to describe how I felt about this book would be "the feels damn strong in here man."
So tadah, 5 stars for this book. I love it.

Awake.

Good morning..
As I'm typing now I'm on my verge to tears.
Frustration, anger, clueless.
I thought such cases never will ever occur in my life .. or around my social circle.
I thought my life is carved out prettily.
With rainbows and whatever you call - A Paradise.
However - No. This shit is real.
I'm staying awake in my living room close to 5 am now.
Watching over someone. Worrying whether things will be better or worse.
If the latter, what can we do for the person?
I really wonder what makes a perfectly normal person to make such rash and harmful decision.

Whatever is now.. I don't know.

Currently reading: The Sparrow

Thank God for books.

Hi I am finally back after so long.
Exams ended and I'm already reaching the completion of my first month holidays out of... 3? Until 11 august.
There was a lot of things I want to type down here.
First off, during my first week of holidays.. all of my laptops crashed. First was my asus laptop. Then my small netbook.
I was happily playing 'The Sims 4' , 'Ozworld' and 'Blade and Soul' and tadahhh my laptop went to a coma and never woke up.
Then came my netbook with its keyboard problems and I ended up couldn't start it up.
So yes, I have no more computers to call upon my own.
So saddddddddddddddddd. I mean I'm already a hermit. Without a pc is like every hermits' nightmare.
I still have my big bro's macbook and finished my psychopass season 2 finally. It is really good.
Then to keep my boredom away - I read books.
I finally finished 'Animal Farm'. Gonna return to Afiq soon.
The book relates really well with some politicians and I got to say... using pigs as an example is definitely a good play.
Then I picked up 'I Am Pilgrim'. Honestly I do heard of the hype and decided to try.
At first I didn't thought well of this book. I guess it was because it was still picking up the bits and pieces and finally lands the reader to a huge blow.
And yeah I got blown away at the later part.
I was dragging and really tried to enjoyed the first few parts then later I started picking up the pace.
I noticed in myself I was engrossed. I could sit down for hours reading till the end.
I have so much feels for the main antagonist and protagonist. It's emotional I don't know why, the author carved the whole plot really well.
At the end, the feeling was like you just finished a really epic anime/manga/book that you just felt that your life is over already.

I wanna pick up more interesting reads. Gonna try to scan at the library tomorrow to find one book to read.

And also, I suck at drawing. Period.

TIFU

How embarrassing reallyyyyyyyyyy!!
I had my presentation for my module (mastering communications) today.
Actually our group was supposed to be the first to present, but yeah you can never reach on time for 8.30am lessons. The LRT always had to screw things up.
So, we ended up the second to present.
When I was presenting, my prof kept knocking on the table so loudly to warn me that my 5 minute mark is over.
I gotten so panicky that I had forgotten what I had to say..
Its really a pity especially when the important points I didn't mentioned at all.
I understood that it was wrong of me to overshot my timing, but I just feel she shouldn't keep knocking omg I'm rushing off my points already...
My friends and I felt really unfair?
Because in the first group , there were some who overshot the 5 minute mark.. and the prof didn't warn them. Esp one of them showed snippets of 3 videos and elaborate so well. While I just showed 1 video, and what... the video time was included in my 5 minute mark?
It was clearly stated it should not be included. Of course excluding the video itself, I overshot a little..

We don't have anything against the first group.
Really.. the prof had to rush us to make us panicky, and of course those who were rushed, usually can't present well because of the sudden nervousness.
I stuttered and just end off like this because she knock so loudly.
I'm sorry I overshot really but ... I think such actions could have been done once and it will be enough to give us the indication that we have overshot.

Sigh, cross fingers.
I don't think I will do well for this module. I even did quite badly for my assignment 1.
Everything is such a disappointment.
Not forgetting my bioimaging lab report that I had to submit soon..
Those microscope images were all over-saturated and blurry when our teaching assistant said it was okay..
Even when I asked whether they are over-saturated, she claimed that it is normal and no over-saturation..
TA how could you, we all trusted you.. oh god.. I'm screwing up all the graded stuff.
Lately, I've been feeling rather sad over my mistakes. I'm really dumb.
Now I had to rush for my 3k assignment on RNA interference.
Probably because of today's horrible presentation, I do feel a bit demoralized in continuing my work..
No manga(s)/ manhwa could even cheered me up today.
However, after a phone call with yve, my heart don't feel that heavy anymore.
Sigh, thank you buddy.
So yep.. TIFU -Today I f up.

Today's NOT my day

Wow so much drama. Wow so much fun. Not.

So I had to submit my assignment 2 (resume) for mastering communications mod and my lab report for immunology.

At the veryyyyyy last minute, I found out my resume had some mistakes.

Being a perfectionist, I would have preferred submitting it with a thought that it would be okay.

But by seeing those mistakes I know I won't have an ease of mind.

So after asking my friends for opinion, I decided to go to LWN library to reprint (even though I still submit my resume with mistakes along with the job advert and cover page).

I went there and started on this computer and God. This starts to really screw up.

Introducing the blue screen of death.

Yes, while I was editing, the comp decides to slap a blue screen on my face. 

So okay, chill. Change the comp.

Second comp? Can't print.

Third comp? No printer registered. 

EH WOW I'M SO FURIOUS OK LIKE YOU THINK I GOT A LOT OF TIME TO CHANGE COMP LIKE I CHANGE MY UNDIES?

Even I don't change so many undies in like 15 minutes right!

So I used Cheryl's comp to print my resume and lab report. Sigh. 

Okay so next thing, after I submitted my lab at SBS, I went to HSS building to submit my resume.

I called wx and he told me it's around the 2nd floor. 

Next, wx and gq later advised me it would be better to print the cover page and job advert (AGAINN?!?!) for the ease of my prof accessing it.

Wow no. Nononononononononono...

I DEFINITELY don't wish to use computers for today. It's really frustrating to see my luck so suay.

So I kind of "whine" to Raudhah about it and she's like hey maybe prof is in her office!

I'm like ooookay it would be perfect if it's like this.

When I reached HSS building - time to find her officeeeee.

So I went second floor and keep it in mind I'm already drenched in sweat. 

I couldn't find her office omg.

I panicked and called wx again. 

Wow I walked along the corridors like some model catwalk but with sweat...and panting like a tired dog.

Finally I found her office and THANK GOD my prof was inside. I explained to her and submitted my final draft. Phew.

Okay so once I reached home, I took a nap until 4.30pm.

Here's the thing that makes me cringed every time I think back.

I went to the kitchen to get some snacks. I was rummaging through those snacks when I felt a bite on my hand.

Well yes, you can expect this shit to happened to me, I mean what else man. 

Much to my horror I flinched and a cockroach dropped on the floor and went to hide somewhere.

OHHHHH MYYYY GODDDD.

I wasn't wearing specs but I SAW. THIS BLACK THING. BLESS MY EYES.

I didn't had the chance to blog about it but this ISNT THE FIRST TIME.

BUT IT SURE IS THE FIRST TIME A COCKROACH KISSES MY PALM. I TOUCHED IT.

The first time was when I was making dinner some time back. Natto gohan (natto rice) yums.

I went to the kitchen and decided to take rice when PIAK. OPPSYYY. The disturbing sound.

A big cockroach landed on the shelf next to my rice bucket waaaaaaaa. 

So that night I didn't dare to go to the kitchen. 

Back to the topic where I first got kissed by the black shit.

I scream like a girl and ran to my living room whining and just act all disgusted. 

My dad came up to me upon hearing that high pitch scream, and found out what happened.

And here goes his "weak girl-tough training" talk. 

"Like that only, next time if you go jungle how you tell me." - EH WHAT THE HECK. WHAT JUNGLE. LOL. 

Sigh man, today is really epic. That's why I decided to impart such great memories down this blog today.

HORRIFYING HOW COULD I TOUCHED A COCKROACH.

I SOUND LIKE A BIMBO THE WHOLE TIME BUT NO SHIT GIVEN. OH YAH AND I WENT TO BATHE AND WASHED MY HANDS MANY MANY TIMES.